5th grade

I remember 5th grade. I remember being excited to go to class. I remember thinking the world of my teacher and looking up to her. I remember when she told me I was getting better at reading. I liked reading the Majic Tree House. I remember we all had jobs, like city jobs (police, mayor, judge, ect.) I don't remember what my job was called but I was the person who would say, "all rise for the honorable judge..." We even got paid fake money. I remember touching my bests hair and him giving me a ticket (he was a police officer) for it. I rememeber going to court for it and pleading not guilty. I remember losing that case and having to give up some of my money. At the end of the year, we did something where everyone brought stuff to sell. I remember selling gold fish. I remember the bell ringing that day. I remember running down the hall with the excitement that it was now summer.

Sad chairs and stuff

School chair - sad day

Hard chair in the back of church - sad hour

Toilet.. - sad moment

I don't know

When the wind blows or when the rain falls, don't forget it can change your outcome. My favorite is when the snow falls because you find how to be yourself. Your true self. What if we never had best friends? Who would we tell our secrets to? Or if we were feeling down, who would we talk to? Because you are what, who, and how ever you want to be. You write your own story. Is this who you really want to be? I can't tell if this is really what I'm meant to be. Is it my heart or bones telling me to take a different path? 

Step 1: go to school

Step 2: pray

Blackout newspaper

Success started as a dream and the strive for excellence

I don't know

I've known you for 24 days and it's like you're my life. I just don't know what I want anymore. What am I going to do after I graduate? What college will I attend? Will I even go to college? Life doesn't seem so simple anymore. The days where I've been dependent are coming to an end. It's time to start being self-reliant. It's scary to think that I'm going to be supporting my own family in the next 5-10 years. I don't even know what I want to be when I grow up.. What am I going to do to be able to support a family? I don't even know why I'm asking these questions because it's not like somebody can comment on this post, telling me what I should do. If only god had a blog... 

INDIE-vidual

I used to wake up and think twice about what outfit I wore. At this point in time in my life, I couldn't give a crap about what somebody is gonna think of me. I am me. Me is I. God made me and I will die. There is nobody else that has ever lived that is me. I'm different, ya I'm different. I am who I am and the only day(s) that I am not, Halloween and INDIE Friday. So kick me when I'm down and I'll break your leg.

Tequila

Whats on my mind? Pretty lady your on my mind and you got me going. Going where? I don't know but its crazy to think that its already November! And when I think about November I think about Cold weather. Blankets and Disney and Popcorn. Heart beats. Fogy windows and cracked wind shields. First kisses and thousands of stars in the sky, sitting around a camp fire with plenty of coats on, talking about the Saturday just 6 days earlier. Wait, that was the day we experienced the time of our life. You told me you loved me. I drove home on a cloud. I don't know what I would do without you. I cant live without you. Whats on my mind? Girl, you're on my mind. You remind me of December because in December, we threw snow balls at each other. And kissed.. Freak! I hate the snow. I hate December and I hate November. Because they remind me of you. I hate blankets, stars, fire, Saturday, popcorn and everything. Everything. Everything reminds me of you. I wish you could be wiped from my memory! Please, somebody grab the Tequila! Maybe this time, I might be able to pull the trigger. Its worth the risk of seeing if there even is a after life, because if there is,
I might see you again.

  

Popular names

Last names:

Smith

Johnson

Williams

Jones 

Wilson

Moore

Anderson

Jackson

Martin 

Robinson 

Thompson 

Lewis

Young

Nelson 

Davis

Boy first names:

James

John

Michael

David

Joseph

Jason

Eric

Steven

Timothy 

Andrew

Paul

Robert

Richard

Mark

George 

Girl first names:

Mary 

Linda

Susan

Helen

Lisa

Maria

Sharon

Michelle

Sarah

Jessica

Amy

Anna

Amanda

Joyce

Heather 

The Moon

Have you ever wondered if places like China are really even there?? Of course you know for sure if you've been there but seriously, if you've never actually been to China, how do you know for sure that it even exist. What if all the maps and pictures are just a bunch of lies?? For me, the only places that I know for sure exist are Utah and Colorado.

After thinking about this it takes my mind even further, what if I have been manipulated my whole life and there are hidden cameras and all of my friends and family are just actors like on the Truman show? Pretty scary to think about! Sometimes I really actually think that that is what's going on. 

Am I really actually going to die? 

Is death even real?

Is the earth really a spere? I know the moon exist.. and the sun.

Space camp!

I hope that I can live my life in such way that if a doctor were to tell me that I only had about a month more to live, I would be happy. I don't want to have to spend that month finding all the people that I put down and having to apologize. I want to feel like I fulfilled my purpose on earth and that I gave it all I had. I might as well go and tell that person that I like 'em because I'm going to die anyways. I just wouldn't want to worry about anything else besides spending my last days with friends and family. Also if I knew I was going to die, I would tell the person who was going to prepare my body for the viewing, to put my hand in the air so everyone could walk by and give me a high five for the awesome life I lived.

My deaths

When I think about the deaths in my life it's not all about loved one actually passing away. One of the many deaths that have occurred during my life was graduating elementary. Though at the time I couldn't of been happier to get out of that rat hole and move on into jr. High, but now, I wish more than anything to go back for just one day of elementry school. I feel like that is something that I have lost and can't bring back.

Recently, I moved out of the house that I spent 12 years of growing up in. It wasn't the biggest or nicest house and to be honest I hated living there. I felt embarrassed bringing friends over because all their houses were cleaner with perfect landscaping and not to mention but theirs were HUGE!! After moving out and staying in this house for about a week, I felt home sick. I missed that house so much! It was where all of my childhood memories took place and it was hard to move on.

I find it very strange that we talked about death in class this past week. I have never lost anybody close in my life until about two days ago when my aunt passed away after battling pancreatic cancer for two years. Right now it still doesn't seem real! It's just so weird to me thinking that I hugged and kissed someone goodbye a week ago and now they are in heaven. The tears are of joy because it was so painful seeing her suffer for so long. 

Death

I am not afraid to die! It makes life so much more exciting when your not considering death. Live life on the edge! You're going to die anyways. Whether it's in 50 years, 1 month or even one week, you are going to die; fact. 

Don't live life with grudges or regrets! You're not forever going to feel angry towards someone your whole life. You never know when they might die, and I can only imagine what it's like wanting to forgive or get forgiveness from someone but not being able to because they are dead. When the opertunity comes to help someone, do it! Don't live life with "what if's" or "what would've been's." You can't bring back the past so live life to its fullest!

Fear

Why is it so scary to go on an elavator by myself? Like seriously that's the dumbest fear I have. If I walk into a hotel with heavy luggage, I still will not take the elevator but instead the stairs. Maybe it's cause I have claustrophobia but in all the two times that I have actually gone on an elavator by myself, I was prayin and holding by breath hoping that it would break down. 

Fear is dumb, why be afraid? Were all going to die anyways. Why be afraid of what people think of you. It's not like were ever going to see these people again. There was something beautiful put inside all of us and because of fear, it can't be shown. Obviously that's not the case for a lot of people for instance miley cyrus, she doesn't seem to care to let out what's inside of her. I wouldn't say its beautiful but at least she's being herself...

If I decided to drop out of high school

If I dropped out of high school I would work at wendeys until I earned enough money to buy my own dog and gun and then I would take my life to the mountains...  I would become a mountain man. First I would hike deep into the mountains and find a pond that nobody has ever been too and I would build my cabin right next to it. I would be set! Not having to deal with what is going on in the world and just enjoy the wilderness! My dog would be my best friend and we would go hunting together to get our food! .... Ok that would be cool for probably a week. Then I would be done.

Stay in high school.

Bricks...

Imagine if the a brick was never invented, there probably wouldn't have been a happy ending to the three little pigs and the the big bad wolf story, my favorite pizza place wouldn't exist and my house probably wouldn't stand too strong when a really windy storm came around. After thinking long and hard about a brick, I have come to the conclusion that I have not appreciated it as much as I should in my life. Now, I love bricks! In fact I love bricks so much that I'm gonna become a professional nascar driver so I can race in the Indy 500!! What??? Ya when I think of brick I thought of the Indy 500. The whole track used to be made of brick but now just the finish line is brick. 

Love makes you crazy

When your in love, you tend to do a lot of weird crazy things. Love keeps you up at nights, it keeps you worried. Love burns holes in your pocket. Love forces you to jump off cliffs, step in front of trains or take bullets for someone else. Love can KILL YOU!! 

Why would you want any of these?? Love is happiness... Love is life. Thanks 

Love

Love is a fire, it can warm your heart or burn down your house. The only difference is you can't control when your gonna start the fire. It just starts. And you know what happens when you play with fire.. You could end up with out house. And literally with with love, you could end up with a Burt down house if you screw up. Love is a very beautiful thing. It's part of Mother Nature because with out it we wouldn't be here. But what do I know, I don't have much experience with it anyways. Unless you include the type of love that I have for my parents and dog but that's different

Give me my crayons back!!!!

I remember when I was a little boy in elementary school, I always wanted to grow up and do the things that my older siblings were doing. Their lives in high school seemed more exciting than mine in elementary. I can't believe that I thought coloring with crayons was lame! I feel like I spent all my time wishing I was older so I didn't developed much of an imagination. Boy, what I would do to go back just for a day! I want to be a little kid again. Give me a new box of crayons in replace of the ones that I threw across the room at my friend! Someone invent a time machine already!!

I am Not a Robot!

I am not a robot! I have feelings that can be good or that can be hurt. When I make a mistake, I have a desire to fix it! Not just let it go. I have dreams that can be turned into goals which leads to a deep desire to accomplish. I have feelings for things and people. I feel tired in the mornings and.. tired at nights. If you were to see me dance you would know that I am not a robot.

Intro

"Fear is the enemy of will.. Will is what makes you take action, fear is what will make you weak. We must ignore the fear! When you are afraid you can't act, when you can't act, you can't defend, when you can't defend, you die!"

This is one of my favorite quotes and it kinda ties into the person I chose, Sayid. He was someone who couldn't be afraid and that is kinda what this class has to be like. You can't and shouldn't be afraid to write something and be worried what others will think of it. Nobody knows who you are anyways! Be yourself. Who knows how many novels or poems are trapped inside of you.